Realizing Victim

When we write the words just flow and sometimes it uncovers what is really going on within. I've been stuck feeling a victim about what happened to me last month. I feel wronged and yet I only have myself to blame. I can choose how I let this affect me. I get to choose how anything affects me. I can allow myself to remain a victim to circumstance or I can stop that and start creating the life I do want. I want to be free of this feeling of anger, bitterness and even hate. Those emotions are pretty strong and they don't feel that great wearing them for long periods of time. So it's time to let that go. I am going to work hard at letting my anger go and letting the victim energy go. I am tired of feeling this way. And often things don't change until we get to the point where we say we're done and truly want something different. Today is a new day.

Day 2. I am grateful for waking up in a nice bed with a cat who wants my attention. I am thankful for being able to walk my dog every morning as the sun rises and the sky lightens. I am grateful still for a computer to type, for the ability to type, and the willpower to keep going. I am grateful I found a small revenue stream that at least will bring in few hundred bucks by the end of the month. More will come. I am grateful for the hot shower I took before writing this entry and for the clean clothes I am wearing. It's Easter and while I don't have kids I certainly have chocolate so I'm grateful for snacks and good company on this day and every day. Today I start by saying this day will be awesome. I will make it awesome.

In gratitude, Elizabeth